It's been hard to write lately, I lack motivation to add anything to my current work load, which already has me at my wits end. I've never felt like it was time to pack it in before, but recently I have been considering letting the blog end here and start up again with a fresh coat of paint after the stress boils over.
But then again, it would seem a terrible shame to finish something that has changed my life so much...so I guess I won't. I'd better keep writing.
Some big news...I start a very part time job next week, which will be a good thing. It will be my first job since before Jack arrived and I'm petrified.
I'm trying to put a positive spin on the next piece of news, because negatively thinking about it makes me well up in tears. We have been suffering in our carfreedom a little, because only the Boda Boda could fit on the train and as we're living in a little village the train is our life line to civilization...so we had to make a difficult decision and sell the Mundo. It happened a lot quicker than I was expecting, we realized it was necessary to get us more mobile and we can't afford numerous bikes in our current financial situation, so it had to go. The good news is the couple that bought it are going to put it to great use with their 2 children, so whilst I did shed tears, I felt reassured by their smiling faces that the Mundo is off to convert the masses in London.
I'm really hoping things start to get easier soon, I don't feel like I've relaxed since June of last year. Moving is so hard, facing a regular work week with health problems is overwhelming, knowing you're not going to be there 24/7 for your little one creates sadness and guilt, selling the Mundo was hard....I miss my dog, and my family too of course. I think my positivity tank is on empty tonight, but I will write more when it's full again.