Today was one of those, start running and don't stop till you drop, kind of days. Tension is high around the house. I'm upset that I can't be there for my Mum right now, but I'm also upset that circumstances have pretty much ruled out anything but the purchase of another car. I had a very emotional conversation with my mum, that resulted in me bawling my eyes out, mainly because I really feel guilty that I haven't been there more for her. Sure we cycled to her house once, but I could hardly walk for a few days afterwards and with my knee pain, I just don't think it would be smart for me to push myself to that extent again. I have a young child and no health insurance- what happens if I can't walk? I know for sure that slow and steady wins this race, even if it doesn't allow for visits to Nannie's House.
Kyle had today off work, because he had some stuff to work on during office hours, the day wore on and my stress level was building. I found myself slumped on the sofa, in the least likely mood to ride. Kyle made the mistake of asking me what was wrong and I ended up bawling (AGAIN!) "I don't want to go ride my bike..." It's almost laughable now as I look back, because of course, we had a really good time!
There is something very wrong with today's departure shot and I bet you'll notice it. But apparently Kyle and I were very distracted, because we didn't- not throughout the entire ride! Today we were very bad parents...but you know, he lived and so have a thousand other toddlers whose parent's forgot to strap them in their bike seat!
I think he had a really good time because as you can see, he made full use of all that extra freedom!
We took a whole bunch of video too and we still didn't notice! We had a really fun time, which goes to show, that those times when you least feel like going for a ride, are the times when you really, really should. The video is full of fun stuff, we went out towards the more rural side of town and met horses and goats along the way, so I can't wait to share it. I added a video viewer to the right side of the blog- we've been having fun with our silly little films. Hopefully we will get it posted on here tomorrow.
I feel like I should write a list of things, emotions, thoughts and ideas that would be beneficial to someone taking this journey. I think of them throughout the day and should really jot them down, because surely someone, somewhere, will do this too and maybe they could benefit from my journey. One of those thoughts would be to write, keep writing and be honest with yourself and those willing to listen. You need to write when you are feeling down, just as much as you need to write about feeling good, because sometimes the line is really thin and you find yourself crossing it without even realizing. Of course this can go both ways, but I can honestly say I've never felt worse from taking a ride on my bike.