Example #1 being that since typing the one paragraph you see above, we have made two trips to the bathroom, had one timeout for yelling (Jack was yelling, not me, although I would love to be put in timeout, if it means I can sit quietly by myself and contemplate my actions), I have been told I'm very behind on laundry by Kyle and I have poured the better part of a cup of coffee over myself...and it's not even eight o'clock in the morning.
That being said, I need this blog, I need it more than ever, I feel my sanity slipping these days and my focus waning. I haven't ridden my bike in a week now, the longest it has sat since it's arrival, in my mind I have to keep telling myself that I have not been very well and that it's probably for the best, as dizzy spells and bicycle riding don't go hand in hand, but then I also feel like maybe I wouldn't feel so bad if I did manage to prioritize myself and get a nice ride in, after-all I have never felt worse for a ride on my bike. But my health has really been on a decline in the last few months, I don't like to discuss it as it makes me feel weak, and it's far less than positive, which is not something I want my blog to be focused on.
So let me dig through this pile of stress and find the real beauty of the moment, and that is- We really are moving, we are already "moving", with each day finding us closer to our goal of an October departure. I have longed for this moment for the last 20 years, and I'm so excited that this dream is finally coming true. I'm excited for my little family to experience this adventure and pleased that I feel our prospects will be greater for it. When I think about all the things that could go wrong I remind myself that at the very least "it will be an adventure" and really that's what it's all about!
I'm going to quote you on this one. "Keep Calm and Pedal On." Hang in there and deal with what you have in front of you right now.
ReplyDeleteBe Safe. Be Green.
Thank you Zeus- You are so right on!
DeleteI, too am deliquent in posting to my blog. Thanks for the bit of inspiration. I am envious of your move; I love England. Please keep us apprised of your journey.
ReplyDeleteGet blogging;) Lets keep each other on track! It's hard when life gets a little tricky- but I'm in it for the long haul for sure!
DeleteMoving to the UK with small children is quite the adventure! I wish you the best of luck!
ReplyDeleteYes, it is really. It doesn't sound much and I think of my dear sister who moved to Australia with a 3 year old, a 6 year old and an 12 year old- she and her husband pulled it off! But I think they had a greeting party and relatives- which makes a difference.
Deletekeep your chin up. Just stay focussed and take it all on step at a time!
ReplyDeleteThank you Andy- you have been an immense help;)
DeletePotty training and bicycling can be a nightmare. I have found a deep gratitude for the quick drying fabric of the peanut shell padding :)
ReplyDeletePlease remember that you are not alone in any of this. Not only do you have Kyle and Jack, you have your readers who are standing with and pulling for you. There are also innumerable families who are dealing with the stresses of moving right now.
I pray with Judah every night and will add your family to our list.
Potty training and bicycling can be a nightmare. I have found a deep gratitude for the quick drying fabric of the peanut shell padding :)
ReplyDeletePlease remember that you are not alone in any of this. Not only do you have Kyle and Jack, you have your readers who are standing with and pulling for you. There are also innumerable families who are dealing with the stresses of moving right now.
I pray with Judah every night and will add your family to our list.
I've been having trouble posting this comment. I hope it takes!
ReplyDeleteI've done the potty training toddler on a bicycle and it can be horrid, but not always. I have become unimaginably grateful for the quick-dry material of the peanut shell. And I bring several sets of dry clothes everywhere we go.
I'm glad to hear you're planning to see the doctor.
Above all else, remember that you are not alone in any of this. Not only do you have Jack, Kyle and your mom, you have us, your readers to whom you can pour your heart out. I've added you to the prayer list Judah and I say every night.
Blessed be. In the end you'll likely think it wasn't so bad.
Haha I laughed out loud at the quick drying peanut shell- its too true, the little celebrations are the best as a parent. Like every morning when I check the diaper to find its dry, woohoo! lol
DeleteThanks for the prayers and thoughts, I have a really hard time talking about the health issues...its so personal to me it makes me immediately well up in tears.
(tears) thank you.